Introducing myself

[Nabil Naser]

I would like to introduce myself now, as it seems only fair that you know who writes these words that some seem to get angry about, while others can appreciate.
At age 11 or so, and after a dramatic and painful experience, I looked up at the sky and denied God. “You don’t exist,” I said “If you did you would not let children like me suffer so”. That started my atheism years. I was at the time studying at a Catholic school, and was part of a religious and very loving family.
Time passed, but my views did not. I was always reading books, because my father had a modest library of great classics. I read quite a few books from Tolstoy, Niche, Hemingway, and when I got a bit older, Marx and Lenin.
At 17, I finished high school with good grades and was offered to study in Romania “At the time, it was a communist country under the rule of the late dictator Ceausescu” I was surprised to find that those who were not interested in religion “denied would be a better word” were no happier than those who went to church every Sunday. Something was missing, but I could not put my finger on it. So I spent two years partying, falling in love, learning the Romanian language, but paying little attention to my engineering studies.
After 2 years, I realized that I was just wasting my time and my father’s money. I was not alone who felt that way. Along with 3 buddies of mine we decided to travel to Rome, in the hope of finding a job and starting some kind of life. We traveled by train. Two of my buddies chickened out along the way, and decided to go back to Romania. My best friend and I continued the journey. Once we exited the train we were shocked to find tens of people around who were seeking the same. We couldn’t speak Italian, except for a few words. We had little money. We spent a week in a half decent hotel. At the end of the week, we knew within our hearts that we couldn’t do what we set to do. So we skipped the bill of the hotel by sneaking out in the middle of the night.
In the morning, we went to the travel agency that handled the airline of our country “Jordan”. We did not have enough money for the tickets. The agent said that we should come back later that day, and if the plane is not filled, they will give us seats for the money we had on us. It worked.
Back home, our families were shocked by the news. I wanted to explain. My dad said it is ok son. Get some sleep, and we will talk tomorrow.
The next day came. I cried in shame for letting my family down and told my father the whole story. His answer, which I will never forget was “That is past now, son, what are your plans now”. My answer was even shorter “I don’t know”
It ended between two choices, either go back to school, or to join the military, as we had a draft at the time.
I came to the US, knowing no one. On my first few minutes in the US, one of my bags was stolen at the airport. On the same night, I walked from the dorm to a 7-Eleven and bought a 6-pack that said beer on the bottles. It was after my third beer, that I discovered that root beer and beer are not the same.
After 2 months of studying English and because had a decent background in the language, I joined the University of Louisiana, where I spent 7 years studying Engineering and Business Management. I fell in love with a California girl, who had the guts to leave California and disappoint her parents and join me in Lafayette, Louisiana. Our marriage started rocky and ended with a separation that is now 10 years old. Amazingly enough, we still love and help each other anyway we can. From this rocky marriage a beautiful and intelligent boy was born. He is now 20. He is smart, gentle and loving, and very dedicated to his music studies at college.

During all these years, I had a nagging question. If there is no God as I came to believe, then where did all this come from? What is managing the universe?
I have always liked to write as much as I like to read. I came up with a theory when I was about 23 or 24. It simply states
Everything is connected to everything else, without a beginning or an end.
That was something. I had now something to consider. It helped me a great deal. I shared this with close friends who also thought that is was worth thinking about.

In the early 90’s I became obsessed with reading. I was reading a book or two every week. This continued for several years. The books I read during these years were not like the novels I read during my youth. They were about what came to be known as New Age ideas, I also learned about meditation, breathing methods, Biofeedback. I also read scientific books, “I must admit that my purpose was to prove the theory I came up with”.
I decided to read scripture books, as it would have been unfair to dismiss a book without reading it first. I read the Bible Old Testament and new, I also read about Buddhism and Hinduism, The Koran, ancient Egyptian and Greek writings, as well as ancient Aztec and Mayan writings among many others
I borrowed the Secret Doctrine from a local library. I am sorry to say that I never gave it back.
But I did concentrate on Physics.

Now, I believe that I have the proof to my theory. In the process, I found that one does not have to deny God. It is just a word we use.


Love and Peace
Nabil Naser

[Jack Donaldson]

Martin wrote; "Jack, to battle the "anti-christ" you need a good workhorse, which the lower self is very well suited for. Fill it with all you always liked, but be aware not to identify yourself with your lower self anymore..."

This is information I love to hear. I especially appreciated your comment on my blog. You do well Adelphiblanc.

[Nabil Naser]

Then, to you, I apologize

You said what you said

The past is past

We are here again

Within now

[christinaleestemaker]

Thanks for your story, I read it with pleasure, while life does not bring always easy.Good you stay friends with your ex wife and son.I think the only way in good relations will be to live apart from each other in the neighbourhood, but have its own life to live, while in one house the one goes to life the other or visa versa and that escalates always, later in time.

Is not it that the Jordan queen was a woman from my country the Netherlands?

[Nabil Naser]

First, I would like to thank you for the kind words
I guess it is a lie that one's head may explode when complimented.

There are several Jordanian queens. well; five to be exact.
Four where the wives that the previous king married, and then separated from, except for the last.
One is the Queen of Jordan today. She is the wife of Abdullah; the king of Jordan.

Queen Noor, the woman that King Hussein was married to is the most active and visible of the Jordanian queens. She is American, Jordanian, and I believe that her family came from Syria.
She is determined to rid the planet of all nuclear weapons. I think it would be worth it to visit some sites that publish her words.

[christinaleestemaker]

Yes right, lazy me, I googled her and saw who she is and what she is doing.

[Nabil Naser]

Thank you Christina

I really think that she is a good woman, oops, Queen.

[Nabil Naser]

Hey, I thought this was about me "that's my ego talking"
Why did suddenly become about the queen?

[christinaleestemaker]

Do you want I put my question and answer away from here? Just tell me and I take that out.

[Nabil Naser]

I was just kidding. I love the queen and support all her efforts for Zero nuclear weapons on the planet.

Christina, don't worry, be happy

Love And Peace
Nabil

[13th Gypsy]

I just want to thank you for sharing that, because since I've been on here, I've been particularly intrigued and interested by you-wondering if you're insane or genius or a combination of both :)
But-& I mean no disrespect-I feel that you're leaving something out... Holding something back. I haven't been on here long, & I've seen you be what some may call "harsh" or whatever, but I know that sometimes, especially when writing rather than communicating in person, it's difficult to get accross certain subtle clues as to the intention of the speaker-you know, it's difficult to "read between the lines". So, to put it in simpler terms, it's like that scene in Hustle & Flow where Noa (blonde) runs off after the microphone thing & she says to D-Jay something like "...don't f#*k with my head. I know when you're f'n with my head because I LET YOU, because sometimes MY HEAD NEEDS TO BE MESSED WITH". Such as simple statement from a movie many simply discount thinking it's another typical ghetto rap story-but so much meaning. So, to those who have criticized you, perhaps you've forced them to grow-maybe their heads needed to be messed with... Or maybe I just ramble & over-analyze & think too much, I don't know. I always enjoy your posts, though. Maybe try to be a little softer on those who are more sensitive in that way. Just throwin' in my 13 cents...

[Nabil Naser]

Where have you been Gypsy woman?

Wandering again?

Thanks for connecting.

Yes, it is true. I have not shared successfully the most valuable information that I have.
You can't blame me however. I do not know what people can, or want to perceive. Some of the stuff that I have to share will feel uninteresting and unimportant, no matter how I describe it.
It amazes me when I read these holy books and see how simple geometry and its contents can be described in so many creative ways.
I suppose that we will all understand, in time.
No, I am not messing with anyone's head. I need help in disseminating the information that I have to share.
Amazingly, I simply need to learn how to post graphics with my posts. I feel like a Mathematician without a paper and pen, who is trying to explain a new complex equation.

Before you feel sorry for me, you need to know that I taught computer software in the class room, "elementary school", and to office workers.

I am happy to hear from

love and Peace
Nabil