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Introducing myself
I would like to introduce myself now, as it seems only fair that you know who writes these words that some seem to get angry about, while others can appreciate.
At age 11 or so, and after a dramatic and painful experience, I looked up at the sky and denied God. “You don’t exist,” I said “If you did you would not let children like me suffer so”. That started my atheism years. I was at the time studying at a Catholic school, and was part of a religious and very loving family.
Time passed, but my views did not. I was always reading books, because my father had a modest library of great classics. I read quite a few books from Tolstoy, Niche, Hemingway, and when I got a bit older, Marx and Lenin.
At 17, I finished high school with good grades and was offered to study in Romania “At the time, it was a communist country under the rule of the late dictator Ceausescu” I was surprised to find that those who were not interested in religion “denied would be a better word” were no happier than those who went to church every Sunday. Something was missing, but I could not put my finger on it. So I spent two years partying, falling in love, learning the Romanian language, but paying little attention to my engineering studies.
After 2 years, I realized that I was just wasting my time and my father’s money. I was not alone who felt that way. Along with 3 buddies of mine we decided to travel to Rome, in the hope of finding a job and starting some kind of life. We traveled by train. Two of my buddies chickened out along the way, and decided to go back to Romania. My best friend and I continued the journey. Once we exited the train we were shocked to find tens of people around who were seeking the same. We couldn’t speak Italian, except for a few words. We had little money. We spent a week in a half decent hotel. At the end of the week, we knew within our hearts that we couldn’t do what we set to do. So we skipped the bill of the hotel by sneaking out in the middle of the night.
In the morning, we went to the travel agency that handled the airline of our country “Jordan”. We did not have enough money for the tickets. The agent said that we should come back later that day, and if the plane is not filled, they will give us seats for the money we had on us. It worked.
Back home, our families were shocked by the news. I wanted to explain. My dad said it is ok son. Get some sleep, and we will talk tomorrow.
The next day came. I cried in shame for letting my family down and told my father the whole story. His answer, which I will never forget was “That is past now, son, what are your plans now”. My answer was even shorter “I don’t know”
It ended between two choices, either go back to school, or to join the military, as we had a draft at the time.
I came to the US, knowing no one. On my first few minutes in the US, one of my bags was stolen at the airport. On the same night, I walked from the dorm to a 7-Eleven and bought a 6-pack that said beer on the bottles. It was after my third beer, that I discovered that root beer and beer are not the same.
After 2 months of studying English and because had a decent background in the language, I joined the University of Louisiana, where I spent 7 years studying Engineering and Business Management. I fell in love with a California girl, who had the guts to leave California and disappoint her parents and join me in Lafayette, Louisiana. Our marriage started rocky and ended with a separation that is now 10 years old. Amazingly enough, we still love and help each other anyway we can. From this rocky marriage a beautiful and intelligent boy was born. He is now 20. He is smart, gentle and loving, and very dedicated to his music studies at college.
During all these years, I had a nagging question. If there is no God as I came to believe, then where did all this come from? What is managing the universe?
I have always liked to write as much as I like to read. I came up with a theory when I was about 23 or 24. It simply states
Everything is connected to everything else, without a beginning or an end.
That was something. I had now something to consider. It helped me a great deal. I shared this with close friends who also thought that is was worth thinking about.
In the early 90’s I became obsessed with reading. I was reading a book or two every week. This continued for several years. The books I read during these years were not like the novels I read during my youth. They were about what came to be known as New Age ideas, I also learned about meditation, breathing methods, Biofeedback. I also read scientific books, “I must admit that my purpose was to prove the theory I came up with”.
I decided to read scripture books, as it would have been unfair to dismiss a book without reading it first. I read the Bible Old Testament and new, I also read about Buddhism and Hinduism, The Koran, ancient Egyptian and Greek writings, as well as ancient Aztec and Mayan writings among many others
I borrowed the Secret Doctrine from a local library. I am sorry to say that I never gave it back.
But I did concentrate on Physics.
Now, I believe that I have the proof to my theory. In the process, I found that one does not have to deny God. It is just a word we use.
Love and Peace
Nabil Naser
At age 11 or so, and after a dramatic and painful experience, I looked up at the sky and denied God. “You don’t exist,” I said “If you did you would not let children like me suffer so”. That started my atheism years. I was at the time studying at a Catholic school, and was part of a religious and very loving family.
Time passed, but my views did not. I was always reading books, because my father had a modest library of great classics. I read quite a few books from Tolstoy, Niche, Hemingway, and when I got a bit older, Marx and Lenin.
At 17, I finished high school with good grades and was offered to study in Romania “At the time, it was a communist country under the rule of the late dictator Ceausescu” I was surprised to find that those who were not interested in religion “denied would be a better word” were no happier than those who went to church every Sunday. Something was missing, but I could not put my finger on it. So I spent two years partying, falling in love, learning the Romanian language, but paying little attention to my engineering studies.
After 2 years, I realized that I was just wasting my time and my father’s money. I was not alone who felt that way. Along with 3 buddies of mine we decided to travel to Rome, in the hope of finding a job and starting some kind of life. We traveled by train. Two of my buddies chickened out along the way, and decided to go back to Romania. My best friend and I continued the journey. Once we exited the train we were shocked to find tens of people around who were seeking the same. We couldn’t speak Italian, except for a few words. We had little money. We spent a week in a half decent hotel. At the end of the week, we knew within our hearts that we couldn’t do what we set to do. So we skipped the bill of the hotel by sneaking out in the middle of the night.
In the morning, we went to the travel agency that handled the airline of our country “Jordan”. We did not have enough money for the tickets. The agent said that we should come back later that day, and if the plane is not filled, they will give us seats for the money we had on us. It worked.
Back home, our families were shocked by the news. I wanted to explain. My dad said it is ok son. Get some sleep, and we will talk tomorrow.
The next day came. I cried in shame for letting my family down and told my father the whole story. His answer, which I will never forget was “That is past now, son, what are your plans now”. My answer was even shorter “I don’t know”
It ended between two choices, either go back to school, or to join the military, as we had a draft at the time.
I came to the US, knowing no one. On my first few minutes in the US, one of my bags was stolen at the airport. On the same night, I walked from the dorm to a 7-Eleven and bought a 6-pack that said beer on the bottles. It was after my third beer, that I discovered that root beer and beer are not the same.
After 2 months of studying English and because had a decent background in the language, I joined the University of Louisiana, where I spent 7 years studying Engineering and Business Management. I fell in love with a California girl, who had the guts to leave California and disappoint her parents and join me in Lafayette, Louisiana. Our marriage started rocky and ended with a separation that is now 10 years old. Amazingly enough, we still love and help each other anyway we can. From this rocky marriage a beautiful and intelligent boy was born. He is now 20. He is smart, gentle and loving, and very dedicated to his music studies at college.
During all these years, I had a nagging question. If there is no God as I came to believe, then where did all this come from? What is managing the universe?
I have always liked to write as much as I like to read. I came up with a theory when I was about 23 or 24. It simply states
Everything is connected to everything else, without a beginning or an end.
That was something. I had now something to consider. It helped me a great deal. I shared this with close friends who also thought that is was worth thinking about.
In the early 90’s I became obsessed with reading. I was reading a book or two every week. This continued for several years. The books I read during these years were not like the novels I read during my youth. They were about what came to be known as New Age ideas, I also learned about meditation, breathing methods, Biofeedback. I also read scientific books, “I must admit that my purpose was to prove the theory I came up with”.
I decided to read scripture books, as it would have been unfair to dismiss a book without reading it first. I read the Bible Old Testament and new, I also read about Buddhism and Hinduism, The Koran, ancient Egyptian and Greek writings, as well as ancient Aztec and Mayan writings among many others
I borrowed the Secret Doctrine from a local library. I am sorry to say that I never gave it back.
But I did concentrate on Physics.
Now, I believe that I have the proof to my theory. In the process, I found that one does not have to deny God. It is just a word we use.
Love and Peace
Nabil Naser
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Permalink Reply by Scott Sands on -
Thanx for sharing It's always nice to flesh in the person behind the words.
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Permalink Reply by Nabil Naser on -
Thanks Pal
Martin, I had to leave much of my story behind. I can't tell all. People are simply not ready.
Having out of body experience, visiting another planet, seeing things that no one else can see.
Coincidences that defy logic.
I am sharing with people that part of me that they can relate to. I can't tell them about what they can't understand.
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Permalink Reply by Pablo Minniti on -
Nabil, your story remind me of another one , that of and argentinian Phycicist: Ernesto Sabato, who went to study in the lab of Pierre and Marie Curie, in Paris. At some point resign and travel also to Italy, by train. There he decide to be a writer. Many years later he said that literature save his live.
Our life is a jorney full of mysteries.
You are a writer, and don't think ,people are not ready to read your stories. when Dante wrote THE COMMEDY, he did , because that was his mission, his message to whoever can read. And I are very gratefull hi did
Iam sure in the world there are many people, who could enjoy, and understand you. And maybe will benefit from youresxperiences.
Certingly, I would try
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Permalink Reply by michaelcarlo on -
Is this the T.C.'s version of the "Sergent Peppers lonely Hearts Club"? Just kidding,nice stories. Mine is much more simple. I am everything, I am No-Thing.
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Permalink Reply by Jack Donaldson on -
I'm surprised to find out Jordan allowed the Roman Catholic Religion. Do they still allow other religions to be practiced in their country? I know you must love Jordan, it is your homeland, but what did you think of Romania? was it a cool place to live?
I suspect my introduction would consist of a person who finally awakened his soul, but was driven to dark reaches due to Paternal strong psychic onslaughts, and subsequent series of poor choices after that. I can't believe I wasn't a full blown psychopath, and/or sociopath, with a long history of serious offenses to others. It's actually quite unbelievable that I am now approaching balance. I never experienced psychiatric institutions, and their subsequent drug retinues. I didn't volunteer and nobody ever pushed me into those places, although I had the attention of many who had that authority. Oh, and Martin, you were a good looking kid, I bet you broke many a young girls heart.
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Permalink Reply by Nabil Naser on
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Now this is funny, I mean real funny. I can't stop laughing
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Permalink Reply by Nabil Naser on
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Thanks for sharing from the heart Jack
We are not that far apart.
Jordan is a very peaceful country. Christianity has existed there before the emergence of Islam. Jordanians are lucky to have great leaders, who are not extremist in the least. They are protective of the people, particularly the minorities. I have never felt out of place in Jordan.
Romania was cool at the time that I lived there, but to me it was just a playground.
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Permalink Reply by michaelcarlo on
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Why did the King throw all the Palestinians out of Jordan?
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Permalink Reply by Nabil Naser on
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Why, Michael? Why?
That is the way you carry hate
Give it up
The man was loved
And now he is dead
Do not hate those who loved
he was a great leader
Do not mock him
For silly reasons
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Permalink Reply by christinaleestemaker on -
NABIL: that is right saying! If you see his songs, especially earth song
What about sunrise
What about rain
What about all the things
That you said we were to gain...
What about killing fields
Is there a time
What about all the things
That you said was yours and mine...
Did you ever stop to notice
All the blood we've shed before
Did you ever stop to notice
This crying Earth its weeping shores?
Aaaaaaaaah Oooooooooh
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